
Our little girl is not a cuddle bug. She loves to read books and sit on our laps, but she is much too busy for
real cuddling. She's got toys to play with and dolls to take to the potty, and fake pancakes to make, etc.
Sometimes when Leif is gone in the evenings, I'll let Anneka read books in our bed and fall asleep there. Then when Leif gets home he likes to scoop her up and carry her to bed and say goodnight to her. And I figure it's good for her to get used to falling asleep in a big bed and not always her crib. Anyways, the other night I realized, "hey, Anneka is in there SLEEPING and I could CUDDLE with her!!" So I excitedly went into our room and climbed into bed next to my sleeping daughter and cuddled up close. Mind you, she is s SOUND sleeper and normally does not wake up once she's out for the night. But you know what happened? She opened her eyes, pushed me away and said, "Mama, nopie". (Nopie is kind of like "no please"). Can you believe it? Out of a sound sleep. Poor Mama. But then I tried again last night and she didn't wake up. Haha.
I said that from time-to-time I'd write a little "day in the life". Here's what we did today:
Leif got up with Anneka at about 7:20 and fed her breakfast while I was able to wake up slowly and pray for awhile. Then he got ready to go to class and I got Anneka and myself ready for the day. While Leif went to class, I went grocery shopping with Inka (and Anneka). We went to three stores today. The first store was a new one that we wanted to try, but it turns out it was a big market (where you have to pay for each thing at separate stands), so we decided to move along. But I found real milk there! It's the kind that's pasteurized but refrigerated and in a bottle. It's the best we've found and we've only ever found it a couple of times. Then we went to another store that's smaller and more expensive... but they had chicken that I like. And then we went to the big/normal store that we go to each week. And they had REAL TORTILLAS and SALSA!! I saw these for the first time last week and was SO EXCITED. I thought for sure it would be gone by today, but it wasn't. So I stocked up big-time.
After class, Leif went to an agency to get letters of invitation for Shannon's family to come and visit in December. We're really happy that they're coming. I think it'll be good for all of us to process together and grieve together. It's still really hard to know that she's never coming back. I'll go for a few days where I'll feel okay and then it'll hit me again. On Sunday at church we sang a song that Shannon always played on her guitar and I started crying and couldn't stop. She's not a person we can just forget about, that's for sure.
Then Leif, Anneka and I had lunch together (fajitas with the new tortillas and salsa!).
After lunch, Leif and I brainstormed ideas for a Christmas party/program we'll be putting on for the kids of our neighborhood. Then Anneka and I both took naps and Leif worked on stuff (I think homework and Bible-study stuff).
At 3:00-5:00 Leif went to meet with the director of the kids' club in our neighborhood to talk about plans for the Christmas party. Anneka and I played/snacked/picked up the apartment after we woke up.
Then Sasha came to shower and do laundry a little before 5:00, and Matthew Wicker came at 5:00 to talk with Leif about going to interview a Buddhist monk together for one of his classes.
At 6:00, we all headed over to Inka's for Bible study. Anneka and I just stayed for the food and social part. Then we came home and read a stack of books, and now she's sleeping in "mama's bed", waiting for me to try and cuddle with her. =) Leif will probably get home pretty soon (it's 9:00 now). Then we'll have time to talk without sweet little girl distractions. Tomorrow is Leif's morning to watch Anneka and I'll go to a Bible study that the women on our team are doing together (every other week). I've been enjoying this study of Esther and a study of Jeremiah that I'm doing with the Russian women from our church. I think it's helped me to feel more connected... and it's good to be stretched in my language skills, too!